hhmmm, immediately makes me wonder if you are okay? In what I am not locked from, you seem to be a straightforward person w/o too much to hide.

Not sure what is going on, but I hope you get through it soon. If nothing is going on, then I am curious for the decision. Clearly (I think) something or someone is upsetting your sense of the world. (Of course, if this happens to be me, I would be most appreciative if you tell me, then I can run away on my own w/o pausing to wave.)